I am backk!! :D
Well, I have been SO busy these days..... barely have time to do anything. However, I am still keeping up with my love life :D not that I have someone I love hehehe...
Well, we just had a gathering with a ton of people, I had lots of fun. It was such a great way to get distraction from studying. There were about 20-30 people who attended, even though i knew most of them, I made a couple new friends along the way :D.
One of the new friend is a guy named A, he seems to show genuine interest in us (My friend and I) He kept on talking to us and for some reason a couple of our friend told me to go and talk to him (because he was new and alone). a little about him, he is an American and he lives in Mount Pleasant. I wasn't really interested in him until he said that he went to U of M for computer engineering. I was like, DAMN! :D we started talking and we got engaged in a conversation. A while after that, we ended up exchanging phone number. He asked my friend and I to attend a symphony concert down in East Lansing and he would like to take us around East Lansing. That was nice of him to offer that, but really I just cant think enough of how awkward that would be.
I do not know yet if I should go because I don't know his intentions yet. The only thing that I am a little skeptical about is that he is a little old. He had his masters degree done and he appeared to be about late 20s or early 30s. I am 21, so that is kinda far away from my age. :P give me your opinion if my friend and I should go with him to lansing or not. Just to let you know my friend is taken, so I am the only single one :D.
I am still into my S :D. He is still lingering somewhere in my mind. Things with him is a lot harder since he is like my student, not really a friend. I hope some day we can at least be friends and see where that goes from there.
Lala
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
SMILE....
~Today I caught myself smiling for no reason... then I realized I was thinking about you.~
I am just practically going crazy everywhere I go and whatever I do!! I cannot get his face, smile, and dimples out of my head. The way he looked at me with that little dimply smile and the way he said things are just so perfect!!!!
I cannot help it but to think about how he thinks about me and if he even notice that I like him like "that". He is always on my mind, it's getting badddd....I am so curious of his life, he is such a mysterious guy. He plays the push and pull game on me!!! Well I guess part of it is because somehow I am his teacher.
One thing that I would like him to know is I am just his age!! :D even though I seem older because of my status, I am actually 2 months younger.... IDK how to get him out of my mind even for a little bit!! I wanna turn this crush thing to be a motivation for me to study and be an intelligent woman!
I have not felt like this for about 4 years! and I love how it feels, the excitement, the curiousity, all the mysteries and doubts..... I really did find my self smiling in the middle of my computer lab!!! "Just the thought of HIM can drive me wild" FOR SURE!.....
Wow! I am bad! I really need to find a way to make this crushing thing to motivate me to study!! :D
LOVE,
Lala
Hot and Cold
I DON'T UNDERSTAND MEN!!
:(
Well, my lovely crush is weird! Monday night he was looking good and acting so nice and smiley. I even caught his eyes, while I was taking some food, looking at me. I also caught his eyes again the second time while I was laughing during the meeting. That was a damn good night. He passed the place where I sat (he didnt have to go through my place to get to his seat) and said "Excuse me" with the pleasant smile and huge dimples that I LOVE!!!
However, today, during class session, he wasn't looking energetic. He looked so tired and you know not really the smiley him. Barely talked, let alone smile with his cute dimples :(. Made my day not as good as I expected . I am not sure whether it is just his personal stuff that's bothering him or because of my role as a teacher in this classroom today. :(
I really hope that it's not because I did something wrong yesterday night that pushed him away...
Dear All Men (and those who understands men) in the world, why do you all act hot and cold?? Why dont u show a girl that you like her or not??? Make up your mind!
Lala
:(
Well, my lovely crush is weird! Monday night he was looking good and acting so nice and smiley. I even caught his eyes, while I was taking some food, looking at me. I also caught his eyes again the second time while I was laughing during the meeting. That was a damn good night. He passed the place where I sat (he didnt have to go through my place to get to his seat) and said "Excuse me" with the pleasant smile and huge dimples that I LOVE!!!
However, today, during class session, he wasn't looking energetic. He looked so tired and you know not really the smiley him. Barely talked, let alone smile with his cute dimples :(. Made my day not as good as I expected . I am not sure whether it is just his personal stuff that's bothering him or because of my role as a teacher in this classroom today. :(
I really hope that it's not because I did something wrong yesterday night that pushed him away...
Dear All Men (and those who understands men) in the world, why do you all act hot and cold?? Why dont u show a girl that you like her or not??? Make up your mind!
Lala
Friday, October 1, 2010
Am I in LOVE??
"The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren't paying attention to before."
If you have been following me, you must know that I just had my heart broken nearly 4 months ago by my first love. It doesnt look like its going to go anywhere with him or A.K.A Its REALLY over...It sounds bad, but I actually don't mind it. From the break up, I learned alot about the relationship and how it really was from outside perspective. So, now I am moved on and ready for new person.
Talking about new person, I have someone that really attracts me inside and out. He is a very good looking guy and generally I don't even wanna consider liking such a good looking guy because most of them are asses. He is an American Football player or an athlete so you can think or imagine how good looking he is. I saw him first in my BIS 101 class in 2007 and at that time he was a freshman and I was a sophomore. He did not even caught my eyes at first because I was more interested in one of his football colleague, MkR. I did not even pay attention to him until almost the end of class and he wiped his sweat on his face with his shirt which caused me to see his ABS!!! Then i started paying more attention to him.
However, at that time, I had a boyfriend who now is my ex. Therefore, I did not put any interest at him at all. I also found out that he was an athlete, so I pushed it even further. The semester ended, then I never really saw him again until after the break up between me and my boyfriend at that time, which was this past summer. I went to one of my friend's teaching class and sat in the back of the lab and then I noticed that he was sitting in front row. My friend knew I was sort of interested in him and he wanted to match us. But, I said, Heck NO.... I mean that wud be so awkward and at that time I have never even communicated with him. Then the summer ended and I thought I would have never seen him again.
Yet I was wrong!!
I walked in to my class which I was assisting and there he was on the first row of the LAB... I was stunned because somehow somewhere I kept on seeing him. This semester though, I have the opportunity to communicate with him. After all the thing I told my self about athletes, this guy proofed me wrong. He is a very nice and down to earth shy guy that is very friendly. But even after all that, this semester i was still skeptical and i was kinda looking more to his friend, DR, since he is also pretty damn cute!!! :D
DR, though, is a typical athlete, he doesn't talk much and such. And this is when I started actually being attracted to S...
Now, the thing is, I don't know if I should pursue him or how am I supposed to pursue him, I mean we talk and such, but you know, nothing personal at all and I do not know how to make it to the personal level of the relationship.... I feel that every time I see him, his face and warmth just make me smile and make me feel really good inside. His clear blue eyes are winners too....I need help on making this more personal relationship :$.....
Another thing is this just prove to me that quote on top was very true. Sometimes, you don't realize that there are something better out there because you are too occupied with your current certain someone and you just simply dont pay attention. But for me, I think this is totally better. :D
Lala
If you have been following me, you must know that I just had my heart broken nearly 4 months ago by my first love. It doesnt look like its going to go anywhere with him or A.K.A Its REALLY over...It sounds bad, but I actually don't mind it. From the break up, I learned alot about the relationship and how it really was from outside perspective. So, now I am moved on and ready for new person.
Talking about new person, I have someone that really attracts me inside and out. He is a very good looking guy and generally I don't even wanna consider liking such a good looking guy because most of them are asses. He is an American Football player or an athlete so you can think or imagine how good looking he is. I saw him first in my BIS 101 class in 2007 and at that time he was a freshman and I was a sophomore. He did not even caught my eyes at first because I was more interested in one of his football colleague, MkR. I did not even pay attention to him until almost the end of class and he wiped his sweat on his face with his shirt which caused me to see his ABS!!! Then i started paying more attention to him.
However, at that time, I had a boyfriend who now is my ex. Therefore, I did not put any interest at him at all. I also found out that he was an athlete, so I pushed it even further. The semester ended, then I never really saw him again until after the break up between me and my boyfriend at that time, which was this past summer. I went to one of my friend's teaching class and sat in the back of the lab and then I noticed that he was sitting in front row. My friend knew I was sort of interested in him and he wanted to match us. But, I said, Heck NO.... I mean that wud be so awkward and at that time I have never even communicated with him. Then the summer ended and I thought I would have never seen him again.
Yet I was wrong!!
I walked in to my class which I was assisting and there he was on the first row of the LAB... I was stunned because somehow somewhere I kept on seeing him. This semester though, I have the opportunity to communicate with him. After all the thing I told my self about athletes, this guy proofed me wrong. He is a very nice and down to earth shy guy that is very friendly. But even after all that, this semester i was still skeptical and i was kinda looking more to his friend, DR, since he is also pretty damn cute!!! :D
DR, though, is a typical athlete, he doesn't talk much and such. And this is when I started actually being attracted to S...
Now, the thing is, I don't know if I should pursue him or how am I supposed to pursue him, I mean we talk and such, but you know, nothing personal at all and I do not know how to make it to the personal level of the relationship.... I feel that every time I see him, his face and warmth just make me smile and make me feel really good inside. His clear blue eyes are winners too....I need help on making this more personal relationship :$.....
Another thing is this just prove to me that quote on top was very true. Sometimes, you don't realize that there are something better out there because you are too occupied with your current certain someone and you just simply dont pay attention. But for me, I think this is totally better. :D
Lala
Monday, September 27, 2010
TIME
Everything happens perfectly in the right timing!
Well, this actually happenned to me today. I was going to be at an organization formal meeting that is held every Mondays. However, this Monday is totally different because I know the guy that I currently like,S, will be there. Yet, I did not expect too much out of it as he might not even come to the meeting.
Surprisingly, he did, we met at the hall's lobby and talked a little bit. After that we went upstairs together and then BAMM!! my ex, M, was right there straight accross from us, looking straight at us. Weirdly enough, I talked to M today and asked him if he would be at the meeting, and he said no.
To me, this is an example of a perfect timing.
So, I ignored my ex and acted like I was close to that guy and started talking abt his classes and such. Then, I finally came by and said hello to my ex. :-p. It was just such a perfect coincidence because my friends were there and they get to see my ex's reaction to me and the guy i liked.
Then the story goes...
M saw me with S and he was standing with two of our mutual friends, G and H, and the two friends were looking at each other and winked their eyes to each other, then my ex wondered what was going on. One of my friend, H, looked at him and said, Isn't that obvious?? And He goes, well yes, it is kind of obvious (That the guy with me was attractive). And he goes, "I am tall too, I am just not that built!"... Can somebody figure out what this mean?? Why would he compare himself to the guy I currently like??
Well anyway, I think that the timing could not be more perfect and I could not chose more attractive guy to be seen by my ex!
Lala
Well, this actually happenned to me today. I was going to be at an organization formal meeting that is held every Mondays. However, this Monday is totally different because I know the guy that I currently like,S, will be there. Yet, I did not expect too much out of it as he might not even come to the meeting.
Surprisingly, he did, we met at the hall's lobby and talked a little bit. After that we went upstairs together and then BAMM!! my ex, M, was right there straight accross from us, looking straight at us. Weirdly enough, I talked to M today and asked him if he would be at the meeting, and he said no.
To me, this is an example of a perfect timing.
So, I ignored my ex and acted like I was close to that guy and started talking abt his classes and such. Then, I finally came by and said hello to my ex. :-p. It was just such a perfect coincidence because my friends were there and they get to see my ex's reaction to me and the guy i liked.
Then the story goes...
M saw me with S and he was standing with two of our mutual friends, G and H, and the two friends were looking at each other and winked their eyes to each other, then my ex wondered what was going on. One of my friend, H, looked at him and said, Isn't that obvious?? And He goes, well yes, it is kind of obvious (That the guy with me was attractive). And he goes, "I am tall too, I am just not that built!"... Can somebody figure out what this mean?? Why would he compare himself to the guy I currently like??
Well anyway, I think that the timing could not be more perfect and I could not chose more attractive guy to be seen by my ex!
Lala
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Differences are the beauty of a relationship.
"Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for."
I talked to a girl today and we talked about relationship. This girl is currently in a year and a half long relationship with a man that she thinks might be the one. They love each other and they compliment each other very well. They are both very passionate about the environment. I have known this girl for five years. I know pretty much how she is and what she is like.
Ever since she was in the relationship with this guy, she was very happy and she really feel secure with him. However, these days he had been lacking in the want to see her and to visit her. She felt really sad today that he did not want to come to her home town and he did not want her to go over to his town either.
She asked me, why is he like that?
I answered: He is simply a guy. Guys are sweet like sugar at the beginning, they always want you, but as the time goes, there will be ants trying to eat all the sugars away and it is the female's job to keep the ants off the sugar that he is giving her. When a guy is given everything he wanted, there are no more mystery in the relationship and he doesn't see it as an exciting relationship anymore.
Another fact about guys is that they are HUNTERS. Do NOT take his role as the hunter, because he will find no fun in it and he wont be attracted to you. When you are with a man, sometimes it takes a lot of patience and practice to keep a man attracted to you. When you are tempted to call him and "beg" him to hang out with you or do some stuff with you, sometimes, you need to know that he wont always say yes and you need to understand and you need to have something else to do if he says no. This will show that you are independent and even though you want them, it doesn't mean that you are needy of him.
Boys are completely different that girls. Girls fulfill their needs by being with their man at all times. Yet, for boys, they tend to like their own space and it will be better for them to see you one in a while because they will appreciate the time that they spend with you.
The top reasons why men leave women are:
1. Neediness and not needed enough
2. When someone or something became more important then the partner.
I talked to a girl today and we talked about relationship. This girl is currently in a year and a half long relationship with a man that she thinks might be the one. They love each other and they compliment each other very well. They are both very passionate about the environment. I have known this girl for five years. I know pretty much how she is and what she is like.
Ever since she was in the relationship with this guy, she was very happy and she really feel secure with him. However, these days he had been lacking in the want to see her and to visit her. She felt really sad today that he did not want to come to her home town and he did not want her to go over to his town either.
She asked me, why is he like that?
I answered: He is simply a guy. Guys are sweet like sugar at the beginning, they always want you, but as the time goes, there will be ants trying to eat all the sugars away and it is the female's job to keep the ants off the sugar that he is giving her. When a guy is given everything he wanted, there are no more mystery in the relationship and he doesn't see it as an exciting relationship anymore.
Another fact about guys is that they are HUNTERS. Do NOT take his role as the hunter, because he will find no fun in it and he wont be attracted to you. When you are with a man, sometimes it takes a lot of patience and practice to keep a man attracted to you. When you are tempted to call him and "beg" him to hang out with you or do some stuff with you, sometimes, you need to know that he wont always say yes and you need to understand and you need to have something else to do if he says no. This will show that you are independent and even though you want them, it doesn't mean that you are needy of him.
Boys are completely different that girls. Girls fulfill their needs by being with their man at all times. Yet, for boys, they tend to like their own space and it will be better for them to see you one in a while because they will appreciate the time that they spend with you.
The top reasons why men leave women are:
1. Neediness and not needed enough
- Man are a creature that has big ego. the job of the woman is to fulfill his ego. They like to be needed but when the girl is to needy, it is the biggest turn off for them. If girls are smart, they will find a way to keep them around. They need to find the healthy balance between the needy levels.
2. When someone or something became more important then the partner.
- This reason is very hurtful. I have a personal reason of why this is hurtful, but none the less, this is probably one of the most hurtful reasons. You think that you were the only one until you discover that there is someone else out there that is more important than you.
3. When the attraction level dies.
- This is not only physical reason, but also a result of Jealousy, insecurity and neediness. Also, when a guy gets everything they want, they will just not be excited anymore. You will be able to see it, the roses will come to an end, no more "i love yous", and no more "I want to see you."
These are just some of the signs, but most of the break up reasons started with three key things: Jealousy, Neediness, and Insecurity. so GIRLS!! Control yourself and your man. Set a standard for him too meet, so that he has a Goal. Guys tend to strive for their goals, when you put standards for him, he knows what to strive for and he will get it if that makes you happy.
Good luck with keeping your man with you and don't do my mistakes.
Ciao!!
Lala
Thursday, September 23, 2010
ME, MYSELF, and I
Hello World!!!!
I know this is not my first post, but I should Introduce myself to all of you. My name is ______, and I am originally from Jakarta, Indonesia. I currently go to school in the USA. This is my 6th year in the USA and I am loving every second of it. I am pursuing a master degree in IS and so far it is not easy. Anyway, I started writing blog this week and I believe I am what they called a "rookie".
I love to cook. Cooking is definetely my passion. I love to come up with new recipe and also cooking for people that I love and care about. In my culture, we usually show appreciation with food and also even in business, we usually make and close a deal with food. Not necesarrily cooking, but we can go out to a nice restaurant and such. I do not mind to cook for anyone at all if they ask and they treat me well (not like someone that they can use and throw away ;) )
Lastly, I am starting a new single life after breaking up with my first love of 3 years. It has been almost 4 months since that happened. I am trying to get him out of my head since he is already kind of with another girl (a mutual friend of ours). However, I always see him around campus and sometimes, it just reminded me of how we used to be. But, i kept on telling myself that i dont need him back and i shouldnt want him back in my life. What is done is DONE. (for now anyway)
So, Guys, welcome to my blog and I hope you enjoy following it :D
Lala
I know this is not my first post, but I should Introduce myself to all of you. My name is ______, and I am originally from Jakarta, Indonesia. I currently go to school in the USA. This is my 6th year in the USA and I am loving every second of it. I am pursuing a master degree in IS and so far it is not easy. Anyway, I started writing blog this week and I believe I am what they called a "rookie".
I love to cook. Cooking is definetely my passion. I love to come up with new recipe and also cooking for people that I love and care about. In my culture, we usually show appreciation with food and also even in business, we usually make and close a deal with food. Not necesarrily cooking, but we can go out to a nice restaurant and such. I do not mind to cook for anyone at all if they ask and they treat me well (not like someone that they can use and throw away ;) )
Another thing that you should know about me is that I am a happy person :D, i try to see everything from the positive side and try to get a lesson out of it! I think it is an important life skill that people must have in their life. Life is short and only once! So, live it to your fullest!
Lastly, I am starting a new single life after breaking up with my first love of 3 years. It has been almost 4 months since that happened. I am trying to get him out of my head since he is already kind of with another girl (a mutual friend of ours). However, I always see him around campus and sometimes, it just reminded me of how we used to be. But, i kept on telling myself that i dont need him back and i shouldnt want him back in my life. What is done is DONE. (for now anyway)
So, Guys, welcome to my blog and I hope you enjoy following it :D
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